| We were talking about... |
[May. 19th, 2008|12:35 pm] |
We were talking about universal medical care in class today, and it turns out that England has free medical care as does Canada. Not only that, our country is taught to be afraid of universal health care by HMO's because having Universal health care would help the nations citizens but it wouldn't allow them to make money. Citizens in countries with universal health care have 3 more years to live than countries who don't. Why is it that America can't provide universal health care?
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| Hi guys, I am blogging... |
[May. 17th, 2008|09:45 am] |
EDIT: listen to the link and see how accurate this was....
Hi guys, I am blogging from my phone oh my god. Anyway, I am just blogging to say that my boyfriend is awesome he know what I am ___ and tired, last night he touched me and then I had to keep my mouth shut the entire time because I was ___ and I was tired and if I open my mouth I would had said something really fucked up. The other thing is lot of economies are going down there are lot of ___ who want to go out and eat and they want to ____ for them but they don't want to pay for it and are making shit money right now fuck those people I am going to ask this later because I don't read like this. Okay, bye.
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What I meant was:
I was blogging from my phone.
I really appreciate my boyfriend for knowing how to handle me when I'm grumpy...
I was tired as hell and he came over and took care of me and I had to be cool by just not saying a word, you know how it is.
The economy is going down.
And the only people in restaurants these days are people who want you to serve them but don't want to pay for the service. Assholes. |
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| women, men, you should know this. |
[Oct. 6th, 2007|06:25 am] |
i'm posting this because it means a lot to me. it marks a huge turning point in my life and because i feel like people should know this about themselves. it was in response to a friend who's going thru some relationship issues:
"as someone who's been in your shoes (relationship-wise, sans kid)
i moved on, and found something better, and now i look back and realize:
we all love to be in relationships, at least most of us, and yet, there are those relationships we endure because we know we could want more but we don't know if we'd find it if we left what we had behind. you hang on to the good moments and the good qualities, even as you wince at all the dumb shit you put up with. plus, regular sex is always nice. but begging for affection? passionless sex??
no, honey, you're strong and your soul deserves more than that. you're not even married and you're in a rut. hanging on.
feel free to prove me wrong, as an old friend i just love to see you happy, but as someone who's been there and done that, i found something better and it's out there for you too. (sry this is so long)
the last time i broke up with justin, he tried to get me back, and after putting up with so much absolute shit, i told him:
i don't care how long i have to be single, i will not settle."
i feel so young for having gone through so much relationship shit, but i know this,
relationships go through their up and downs, it's the two of you against the world, occasionally, the two of you against each other, but at the end of the day, thats your partner-in-crime, your team awesome, and your rock to stand on and if it doesn't feed your soul, then what are you doing?
wasting time out of fear. |
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| my dad |
[Jun. 3rd, 2007|01:12 am] |
we were driving to oceanside, and my dad goes:
"see that plant there? the one with the trumpet flowers?"
me: yeah...
"see that plant there? it's a real bad hallucinogen. man, you cut up the root like you cut a carrot and eat it and it'll mess you up!" |
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| man, oh man |
[May. 31st, 2007|02:55 am] |
so i got absolutely nothing done today because i got hit by some crazy stomach bug.
it left me so weak and dehydrated and in so much pain because my stomach wouldn't stop cramping and spasming that my mom, God bless her, took me to the hospital, where i spent the day! yay!
IVs fucking hurt. and the nurses are really no nonsense. My mom got irritated because one nurse threatened to put a catheter in when i told her i couldn't pee because i was on the toilet all morning.
The other nurse told me that I needed to "be an adult" because she was sticking a catheter in my hand and it really hurt.
But once we got the ugly stuff done, the x-ray tech was nice enough to give me some warm blankets. She is officially, behind my mom, my favorite person.
For some reason my blood pressure is really low and i was really cold. I think my mom would have just had me stick it out and not brought me to the hospital, but my fingers were blue.
I guess that is pretty worrisome.
So after two bags of saline and some drugs they let me go home and I feel much better!
However, and this is the reason i am blogging, one of the medications they gave me does not mix well with alcohol.
This is only serious because i can't drink for the next13 days, which sucks for college functions, but not only that, I can't use mouthwash, eat maraschino cherries or put lotion on my body that contains alcohol.
crazy huh??? it's that serious. |
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| addendum... |
[Mar. 30th, 2007|07:08 am] |
i just wanted to say that about my previous post (as if any could give a shit) that I'm not saying that ADD, OCD, and depression are not valid ailments.
i get depressed from time to time. i do believe in chemical imbalances although i think there's gotta be something we're doing that's causing those.
however, there are places where mothers know their babies are more likely to die than not, well....you know what i mean.
but my experience of depression draws on a midway between depression to my mom and depression to my dad:
my mom grew up in a bamboo hut on stilts so that they could keep pigs underneath, she washed her clothes with rocks, and she says, now that she's in America, "I don't care if i have to work three jobs!! I'm never making my own fire ever again!!"
her depression consists of an hour long rage where she throws things into the swimming pool, then she cries, goes to sleep and goes to work again.
my dad grew up here, and he's a big supporter of productivity. his mom literally had a nervous breakdown and left the family for a few years when most of his siblings were teenagers (there were seven of them) and dad had to take care of all of them.
dad gets depressed but he's still functional....he just sleeps more.
either way, i can get depressed....the longest i've ever not been functional was three days...and then i emerged into the world like a fuckin' butterfly.
and i felt really guilty for taking those three days.
ah, hell, bottom line is i was taught something different, i don't understand his mom and because i was taught to be functional, i have a hard time respecting the fact that she's and adult mother and she can't do it.
fuck, is that so wrong?!!??! |
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| differences...and email to josh. |
[Mar. 29th, 2007|11:35 am] |
i appreciate the wisdom. we hashed it out and believe me i am not backing down. understandably, this is a hard issue for him because all his life it has always been him, his mom and his brother and because his mom is too "independent" (ie scared and troubled or hurt to let anyone else in to her life) justin has always been man of the house. sort of a husband in the emotional and responsibility sense. so he's very protective of her as a single mom who's gone thru quite a bit of trauma in the last how ever many years....
i spoke to him and made him realize that it's no longer going to be his mom and him against the world. he is now on my team, right or wrong, or he can choose to leave. also, he is an adult forming his own life and his mom has been adult and she can choose to stand on her own two feet without using him as an emotional crutch. i don't know if I'll ever stop him from being over protective about his mom, but our compromise is that i am an adult and so is his mother and if she has a problem with me or i with her, she needs to speak to me and he needs to allow her to speak to me instead of having me argue with him and hate her as the bitch that got between our relationship.
as of now, the engagement is on. however, i will be very cautious when it comes to this. i've forgiven him for many things, and looked past many of our differences, but even my own parents agree (as well as cynthia) that a marriage is for two people and that doesn't include anyone's parents. he knows that if he's not ready to separate from his mom and let us deal with our own problems, he needs to get out now. bottom line.
so i win. see? he's taking me to dinner tonight. just kidding, i know i always say shit like that but i don't really mean it. the situation was not fun, and mistakes are made, but it's unbelievable how the differences make a difference:
i come from a thick-skinned family - you handle your shit, go to sleep and get on with the next day because there is no time to waste you life and wallow in self-pity.
his family believes (and so does he) that people should have as much time as they need to lie around and be miserable. yeah, well try doing that in a third world country where you literally have to work or starve. i think that's what's wrong with americans - they're allowed to take so much for granted that they allow themselves the luxury to wallow in misery and invent sickesses that didn't even exist before. africa doesn't believe in ADD, depression, OCD or whatever, they believe in AIDS, ebola, and the UN world health org. Many starving people in Third World countries don't even have the luxury of grief. can you imagine? somewhere out there, grief is a luxury?
i'm middle class and my parents are asian. we have a bigger family, and a bigger extended family and a lot more family friends. i've also had the luxury of traveling, college, nice first cars, nicer clothes, and better food. it's not a bragging point, but justin is jealous that i get to go to the Philippines in two months for the third time, and that i've gone to Germany, and Hawaii. My parents think that a world view and travel is important, and while we aren't rich, they've been able to give it to me. i told him that he only needs $1500. he can't get that together or afford to take the time off of work, which i don't hold against him. i've had the luxury of never really having to worry about money, never really working more than one job at a time, never being forced to work a job just for the money, and to know that no matter what happens, my bills will get paid and i can still buy clothes and go to the movies. i'm very lucky, i know, i don't take it for granted.
these are big differences, and they come up from time to time. right now he's working and i'm at home excited that i found my passport. you see, i get paid the same whether i miss a day of work or not. God is pretty good to me.
the point is that from my understanding, i will always be different from anyone i choose to date. if i wanted someone with the same upbringing i'd better move to the south and marry my brother. and we have two options when it comes to our differences - love each other and work through it, or walk away, but if you're going to marry someone, you can't split just because every difference seems insurmountable.
pray for me, my family may be very rich in the coming years... think Texas tea. i'm crossing my fingers. |
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| ahhhh, worklife |
[Mar. 21st, 2007|02:35 pm] |
my sweet dog has finally shit outside in the dirt instead of inside on my bedroom carpet. whoohoo!!! of course, we had to tie her outside next to the dirt to do it....
they don't really have juice it up! out here....every smoothie place is this "tropical cafe smoothie" franchise and it sucks. fortunately, i found a filipino-owned smoothie place that can supply my need for chai boba smoothies close by. God is good.
my aunt is getting a divorce and i think the divorce may not do well for her citizenship status. i hope all goes well, but things have been crazy around here. 6 days late, and dad and i have not been paid.
she's paying 2 lawyers, one for divorce and one for immigration, and now she's paying movers to move furniture from the house we're staying in to a house 4 doors down with the same floor plan as the one we're in, just backwards.
i'm not sure why, i think the plan is to sell the house we're in (but that won't happen for a while) and dad and i will move to another house two streets down and she'll live in the house we just moved all the stuff to....
shit is really weird around here.
while furniture was being moved, she ducked into a bedroom to fight with her soon-to-be-ex-husband on the phone....eventually she got so worked up you could hear her from downstairs.
on the plus side, everyone (especially Lauren and Justin) and by everyone i mean about 15 people, 18, if you include my family, is coming up here this weekend for the monster truck rally and some drinking, gambling, and clubbing!!!
it will be fun. and it looks like everyone should have a comfortable place to sleep! i can't wait.
plus my office is planning a fun trip for spring break so i'll be in town next week, either from mon-wed or thurs-sun.
i think, since i'm so happy that Pancit finally shit in the dirt, I will take her to the Dog Park today!!!! I finally checked out the Dog Park, and it's really cool!!! Las Vegas has quite a few Dog Parks....well, their parks in general are ginormous. and the community center next door has water slides. i guess that's what happens when you're in a city where so much money changes hands....
i feel bad because Pancit is so lonely while I'm at work and when I get home, I sometimes just want to rest a little before i play with her. I think she's getting used to being on her own more though. It's just that when we first got her, i was with her everyday all day for a while and she got used to that. |
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| Pancit. |
[Mar. 14th, 2007|05:16 pm] |
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I have a beautiful new puppy. Six months of greatness. This is Pancit Adobo Clifton. ( I Figuered, that since that will be her last name later, I might as well put it there now so that i don't have to do all the extensive name cange forms. now that would suck. Pancit ate my Social Security card this morning. if you try to walk Pancit, she will sit down and look at you like you're stupid.
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| ahhhhh... |
[Feb. 22nd, 2007|02:42 pm] |
i did yoga this morning. interestingly starting the morning off with yoga seems to give me focus, since i get ready for the day much faster...or so i believe.
maybe i'll do this more often.
it's been about a week. my aunt still has not paid my dad, or my mom. i'm going to stab someone.
we now have a timeline, we now have a plan. i will be back in MoVal and @ UCR by September at the latest. Fuck you, auntie.
it seems like she's trying to scam my mom into taking over the payments in the house we're living in (her house) so that she can go live in the new house that she's having my mom buy (also her house). it's all very circular and retarded but in the end it's a hell no.
that would mean my mom paying for three house when we're struggling with two and my damn aunt can't keep any promises she makes.
in other news, that lady from yesterday that i got you all concerned about, she called later the cancel the meeting she made saying that she was involved in some kind of custody battle, but that she would get us our money (before we slam her in court)
on one hand, those facts make me want to feel sorry for her, obviously she has her own shit going on, however, the fact that she called to say that she had deposited our money and had receipts to prove it and then called back to say that she would give it to us proves to me that she lied in the first place and she knew she was behind in her rent.
STOP FRONTIN PEOPLE!!!! for real, tell me what's really up and we'll stay friends. lie to me and i'm liable to rip you a new asshole wherever i can just because i can.
in other news, i have great friends and family and i'm in love. |
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| Wedding Update #1 |
[Feb. 13th, 2007|09:10 pm] |
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i figure, i gotta write down all the random ideas and info about the wedding. i think talking to Lauren and buying this book as really motivated me to step it up and start planning the wedding on a real basis.
let me elaborate - it's hard to even think of planning a wedding when as a couple, we're busy figuring out the finances of just being able to see each other. I wonder if this is really going to help me in the long run or if it'd be easier to live in Mo Val and plan this.
i'm trying to cut down on my spending so that i can pour everything extra into my credit cards. i'm trying to keep better track of my expenses, and cut out most of what isn't necessary. basically, i spend a lot of money on food and gas...and i'm trying to cut my monthly book spending at least by half. i don't like doing libraries because i like being able to keep my books and refer to them whenever i want. plus, having books around makes me feel good.
justin will be fine in nine months, when my engagement ring will be paid off. and i think by then, a substantial chunk of my debt will be paid down. fortunately, i don't have to pay rent no matter where i live, vegas, or here. and i've been trying to put money away in a savings account.
i bought a book on the different ways to save money on a wedding - what to look out for, how not to get scammed, what questions to ask, well-known vendors with more reasonable prices....
as it turns out, the wedding industry is vicious and has a billion tricks to part you with your money. some places sell headpieces (a plastic clip with fake pearls, silk flowers and some tulle) for anywhere between $60 to $300. no lie.
the book makes me feel a lot better about planning this now that I know what to look for. also, Lauren has been encouraging me to go out and actually check things out in stores and at expos, so here's my progress:
1. I checked out dates on local bridal shows and let those close to me know (and yes, cynthia, if you can come out to las vegas on the weekend of the 24th, i'd love to have you there)
2. i created a wedding website, which will be more complete as the planning goes along... here's the site: http://sherelleandjustin.weddings.com
3. i put in inquiries to various wedding and reception sites as far as pricing
4. i've been continuously browsing through good vendor and info websites and bookmarking those that i can possibly use later along the line
I plan to:
1. Develop pictures of Justin and I and collect old ones - I am putting together an album that will have pictures of us and pictures of wedding elements that i've cut out of wedding magazines, kinda like a wish book to coordinate what i like.
2. Narrow down wedding sites and confer with Justin as to what we are putting together - he wants a beach wedding, i'm less concerned about the venue as long as all my family and friends are there.
3. Set a date, so that I can coordinate around that date and book the venue.
4. Collect full contact information on everyone I plan on inviting - email, address, cell phone and home phone, full names, family names
5. I need to put an official engagement announcement in the Press Enterprise...
6. There's been the question of a budget, but i think we may make it up as we go along, considering there is no set amount of money sitting around anywhere and we'll likely be paying for this as we go along.
Perhaps I'll make an ideal amount to shoot for or beat and maybe go from there..... |
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| youth and mortality |
[Feb. 6th, 2007|06:59 pm] |
there was a vampire movie i watched, but i watch so many movies that i can't remember what it was.
anyways, the vampires were admiring humans saying that life is so precious to them because they are mortal and it's the only life they have.
yet, as a young person, sometimes I get this overwhelming feeling at the thought of opportunity like i could go anywhere, try anything and do anything and always get a second chance because I have so much time.
and then i realize that every passing moment, is the only moment i have.
God, i need some guidance right now. |
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| oh and by the way... |
[Feb. 5th, 2007|10:51 am] |
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if anyone has any good websites to kill time, that'd be great. cuz i spend all morning doing nothing usually. well, i check my mail, myspace, lj and whatnot and i'm trying to get through my reading before i spend money on more books when i haven't finished everything that i bought last time. |
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| tagalog phrases of the day |
[Feb. 1st, 2007|10:55 am] |
ikinagagalak ko kayong makilala = i'm pleased to meet you.
i told my dad about this tongue twister and he said, " i would say that and then throw up in front of them."
anong pangalan mo? = what is your name? |
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| prayer. |
[Jan. 29th, 2007|04:44 pm] |
sometimes when i pray, i forget that when i ask for money, i should really be asking for a way to see my fiancee more, or a way to eliminate my debt or not have to worry about school loans.
i forget that money is not the object of my prayers, it is merely the most widely-used lubricant of our lives. it is only the standard idea of the way we as humans make things happen.
the truth is that God doesn't need money alone to allow things to happen in our lives, because there are many other ways to accomplish something.
do you get it? i'm not trying to teach anything, i'm just putting a thought into the visual realm so that i can be more clear about it. |
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| i live in a different world. |
[Jan. 20th, 2007|08:05 pm] |
apparently my purse isn't good enough. a special trip must be made so i can pick out "my own Coach purse"
my dad lost his cell phone.... |
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| the butterfly effect. |
[Jan. 18th, 2007|05:17 pm] |
sometimes, even though i do all that i can to have an effect, i start to feel like it doesn't matter what i do, everyone will get on just fine, you know?
but then i find out that i do have an effect. and it's not always spectacularly positive. oops.
and then i move on. but sometimes it is. and that is always cool. |
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| in the office.... |
[Jan. 15th, 2007|05:16 pm] |
two things first:
i moved to las vegas before the New Year.
i got engaged on New Year's Eve!
it is now below freezing in Las Vegas...well, it's 48 degrees but the water on the sidewalk is rock solid.
my dad's in town, and he'll be working with me which is great, cuz i'll have some family around. i'm not so lonely anymore!!!
Vivi, my cousin, always gets offended when I say i miss my family because she's my cousin, but it's different being so far away from your parents and your brother for the first time, and your friends, and my fiancee/super love agent. :(
fortunately for me, he visits on the weekends usually, but it's hard because every time he visits, he can't work his weekend job and so this relationship will be expensive until we can work something out. we're patient, it's okay. |
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